Pressing On

December Hurts.

But in the hurt, there is growth.

I didn’t have anything to write tonight. But. this little nudge, kept nudging, and kept nudging; again, I was persistent with “I have nothing to write.” I will supply” replied the nudge. –

So, I offer myself to the one who does the nudging, to the one who does the leading, and to the one who is behind the purpose and reason for my blogs, My Savior Jesus.

I needed scripture. I was given a song;

Press on Morning’s Coming; by C.T and Becky Townsend.

What are you saying Jesus. Here it floods. He takes the lead.

I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus-Philippians 3:14

Wherefore seeing we are also compassed about with so great cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us. Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down on the right hand of the throne of God. For consider him that endured such contradiction of sinners against himself, lest ye be wearied and faint in your minds-Hebrews 12:1-3

Sometimes we have to do things that don’t feel good. Sometimes we have to make hard decisions, decisions that normally wouldn’t make, but sometimes and often in our walks with Christ, we have to lay aside our wants for the will of Jesus.

This is Growth! Think about a seed. Small, placed into dirt or ground. The seed is watered, and nurtured, a plant emerges. Pruning takes place. Pruning hurts the exterior, but the inside, flourishes! The plant grows, and grows, the flower emerges, and at the end of each season of growth, other seeds can be harvested from the plant itself, ultimately producing more crop and harvest for the next season.

We have to Grow. We can’t stay the same. We were never meant to just be planted. We are meant to grow. We were meant to preach, teach, share, care, plow, sow, lend, and be there for others. We were meant for more. We were never meant to stay in the dark, we were meant to fully come to the light. Remember it takes light and heat for a seed to grow. If something or someone is settled into the dark, they can’t see clearly, all they see is what surrounds the dark. Pain, depression, sadness, shackles, death, misery, chaos, please just stop, trigger warning! YOU must come to the light to grow. The light is where the warmth is. The light is where the sunshine is, the light is where the mending is, the light is where the sorrow begins to heal, and joy sets in.

Where do you get that light? In Jesus himself.

I sat in darkness. Many, many years.

I’m no longer the darkness that once surrounded me.

I’m pressing on, with or without anyone with me. Jesus before me, the past behind me. I’m pressing on, I don’t want to go alone. But I will. I won’t stop.

Jesus has brought back meaning, strength, desire, and fire! Jesus has brought back my joy.

December is hard.

December is Her birthday. She’s not talking to me. She hates me. She is my only little girl. She has grown up and I don’t even know her. She’s not the baby I once had, she’ll be 14. She’s my tears, she’s my cry in the middle of the night, she is my pain. This isn’t some normal teenager mad at their mom, this is a I made her mad beyond measure, I disrespected her with my big mouth. She’s always been miss independent, and expected her to be this controllable baby, when she was never meant to be controlled, she was meant to be loved and I blew it. I blew it with my only Baby J. I got these rotten boys, whom I love so much. Oh, how it’s fun to get them in public and announce my loves for them, or offer sugar, (yes, I’m that mom). But what about her. Misery doesn’t want company; in fact, Misery doesn’t want anyone to feel this. Misery prays for comfort only Jesus can give.

Jesus used Judy to give me a gift. I say Jesus because he knew that I would know it was from him, oh how I wept.

A stuffed animal plushy of Jaylah’s. — multicolored, oh how I love Rainbows. –Did I mention it was an owl? Jesus showed up! I’m just waiting on him to show out. ❤

You have got to press in. Even if you do not want to, you have to.

We all have to press in. Jesus is coming soon. Very few will go with him. He tells us in his word, a third part will be brought through the fire, and they will be refined, and he’ll be their god, and they’ll be his children.

And I will bring the third part through the fire, and will refine them as silver is refined, and will try them as gold is tried: they shall call on my name, and I will hear them: I will say, It is my people: and they shall say, The LORD is my God.–Zechariah 13:9

Let the fire purify you, not consume you. —-

I love you all, ❤

I’m always here. ❤

Let’s talk Jesus ❤

❤ Jesus loves you more than you could ever imagine, and his arms are stretched out for you ❤

❤ Christie

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