The word says “For the spirit of heaviness Put on the garment of praise”
That’s how we fight our battles, this is how I fight my battles. It may look like I’m surrounded but I’m surrounded by You. — Michael Smith
It may look like you’re surrounded, but you’re surrounded by HIM. It may look like you are sinking, but you’re being grounded by HIM. Rest assure he is holding your hand!!
I am a music buff! I love music, especially worship music. I love the type of music that takes me to my Jesus and lets me release everything into the palms of his nail scarred hands. There’s something about the being sheltered in the arms of Jesus that brings joy to any situation, or circumstance.
Life is hard. Life is grand. Life is full of setbacks, step ups, step backs, directions, communication, and miscommunication. Life is an obstacle. Life is a pleasure, life is a gift, and life is one gift.
It doesn’t matter how much you have in this life, what matters is who you have. Am I Jesus thumping again? Maybe, but I’m telling you, if you could see what I see, and if you could feel the fire from Heaven that’s within my veins, you’d hunger for it.
Can I touch it? Yes! Can I taste it? Yes! Can I give it to you? Yes!, but I cannot give you mine. My oil is full, my flame is bright, and I’m waiting for my bridegroom to come. I’m waiting on Jesus. You can have this same joy, and anoiting within you too, but there’s one stipulaton, you have to let him in, and then you have to let him grow you. Its a seed thats planted and nurtured and watered.
Again, the kingdom of heaven is like unto treasure hid in a field; the which when a man hath found, he hideth, and for joy thereof goeth and selleth all that he hath, and buyeth that field- Matthew 13:44
Sellout. Sellout to him. He wants all of you. He wants to heal you. He wants to mend you. He wants to show you love like you have never experienced before. He wants to hold you when you cry, (listen grown folks need held too, male and female). Jesus wants you to know he is near, but why do you harden your heart. – Ouch that hurt. He loves you more in one second, than anyone could in a lifetime.
Can I get a little real for a minute. I like real. Real is where I feel like Jesus and me break ground. I don’t break it, but I walk with him, and he breaks it.
My life isn’t a bed of roses. No boo Hoo stories. I don’t’ have Syrus and Jaylah, its pushing 6 months now. I cry, I get back up I press on. Eli is staying sick, them school cooties, need to stay at school. My marriage isn’t the easiest, but it is the one Jesus placed me in. I cry. I cry a lot. I get angry. I get angry a lot. My mind wonders, but then Jesus grabs it and pulls it back in as fast as it wonders into the deep. I’m a full-time college student, I work full time, and I’m a full-time mom/wife. I’m stretched thin, only my hips say (girl lay off the fast food). I’ve gained weight. I struggle. BUT… I have more peace now than I ever had. During all this chaos, I’ve found the lily of my valley. I’ve found refuge for my soul. I’ve found the one who calls by name and who calls me his beloved. I’ve found the one who loves me beyond reason, and who loves me when I’m unlovable. I’ve found the one who will never leave me, nor forsake me. I’ve found the one who is a diamond, burning bright, in the heaviest of soil. I’ve found the one who came searching and searching and searching until he found me. I’ve found the one who relentlessly pursues me even when I say, “Nope, not today.”
Shew, you’re probably thinking “Girl, you’ve had him the whole time!” You’re right, I did, but not like I have him now. I have Jesus, and Jesus has me. Somewhere along the line, I surrendered all (except cupcake icing, me love that.)
I work at a long-term care facility, and I’m fully alive. I feel these people. I feel them to the point where I don’t want to transfer places or even consider getting a new job. I’ve grown attached for the first time in over 7 years.
I left my heart at this facility 7 years ago, and in the past few weeks, I feel my heart beating again, only its different.
I will never stop praying for you, I will never stop praying for God’s vision, I will never stop praying for dry bones in the valley to come alive, to come alive I say in the name of Jesus Christ the Lord. I will never stop making intercession, I will never stop fighting for Jesus. I will never stop serving Jesus, but I will walk away from everyone and everything that attempts to lead me from him. I’ll choose Jesus over work, over school, family, careers, friends. I’ll choose him until I die.
I long to be like the apostles, living their lives sold-out for the purpose of Jesus, serving others, and serving his church. Guiding lost sheep back to the ever-green pasture.
I long to be intimate with Jesus, and to be made in his image. I pray Jesus if there’s anything you don’t like, mold me dear lord. Make me pure, make me white as snow. Let me lead by example Jesus, if I portray anything except for who you would have me to be correct me my lord. They may say I’m crazy, but I’m devoted, strong, I’m courageous and I am not ashamed.
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On a cute side note: Owley is bananas. She’s my shadow, she allows me to bath her. I adore my Owl child. She sleeps on my pillows, lays on my textbooks, and decides to play when I need sleep the most.
I pray I’ve said something to help you.
I love all of you and each of you!
Oh, and if you ever want to know about my best friend who walked on the water, I’ll tell you all about him!!!
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