For His Glory

How could I have been so blind? Maybe I really wasn’t blind. All the signs were there from the beginning. I picked them up. I had you checked out. Years of Occupational therapy, and even a round of Speech therapy.

Diagnosis #1 (age 3): Sensory Processing Disorder, but to what extent?

Fast forward

Diagnosis #2 (age 6 years 10 months, the date was July 8th, 2022, to be exact): Autism level 2.

My heart: Ripped from me, torn apart, and left in puzzle pieces, except these puzzle pieces had nothing to do with me, they were all about my Pea Pie. My 2nd chance, my Eli.

We will survive.

We will grow.

We will keep going.

I’m like Momma bear who has turned into HULK. I’ve cried so much and talked in so many circles. & It all brings me back to the same simple conclusion.

Eli is perfect the way he is.

Eli is love.

Eli is filled full of Joy. Eli knows Jesus. & Eli has solid faith to be so young. Eli knows no hate; all he knows is love.

I will fight to protect the one who greets me at the door and tells me he loves me a hundred times a day. I will fight to protect the one who tells me “Mommy you’re so cute.” I will fight to protect the one who trust me to pray for his monsters. I will fight to protect this child of mine who has become my hero. I will nurture, I will love you, I will help the pieces in your puzzle find where they fit, and when they come undone, I’ll help you find that piece and ever so gently place it back where it goes.

I praise God for Eli.

I thank him for showing me what’s really going on, and I thank him for loving me and trusting me enough to be Mommy to such a special little boy.

Between gearing up for college, accepting new challenges, and conquering autism I am pooped. Mommy needs a vacation, and about 48 hours of sleep, and maybe a root touch up. ❤

Remember I love you all

&,

Jesus loves you most.

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Now, Ya’ll know, I cannot write a blog without saying something about my Jesus, right?

Here goes.

 Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. Proverbs 3:5-6

Delight thyself also in the LORD; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart -Psalm 37:4

 Repent ye therefore, and be converted, that your sins may be blotted out, when the times of refreshing shall come from the presence of the Lord. And he shall send Jesus Christ, which before was preached unto you: Whom the heaven must receive until the times of restitution of all things, which God hath spoken by the mouth of all his holy prophets since the world began. — Acts 3:19-21

We all live in a world of want and gimme. I want, I want, I want. Gimme, gimme, gimme.

But what about what Jesus says? What about what Jesus wants.

Isn’t what he wants from you more important than what you could ever want for yourself? It’s hard I get it, the waiting. You feel like you give, and you give, and you’ve stood, and you can’t stand anymore. But hear me, you have to stand. Get up, I say get up, shake off the dust from your feet, and move closer to Jesus. He’s coming soon to redeem you.

I’d be lying if I said I read my bible every day, it’s hard, the struggle. The grief, the anguish, the mental pains of life. My joy comes from Jesus himself. When I am tired, I snuggle into him and breath because I know I’m going to be alright. When the devil whispers into my ear “Just give up, you’re miserable” I tell Jesus “You’re worth it, and I love you, please help me to stand, I’m about to black the devils eye!” This Jesus of mine, he bears my burdens.

Reach out to me if you need me. I am always here.

❤ Christie

christie7373@halfwayhomeministries.com